As a little girl & after marriage, I used to always wondered what my body would like & feel like being pregnant.
I could never envision it. I always saw others and wondered how it would be for me.
Well, here’s what I wish I could tell my younger self.
You get flabs, right above your belly, which is super unflattering and makes slouching super uncomfortable. And your wish of bigger boobs finally happens but they come in saggy and with stretch marks on the bottom. You think you know what it’s like to have back pain but you really have no idea until you carry 20 pounds on your belly. Your thighs get thicker and your face gets fuller. Sometimes, you can’t even recognize yourself in pictures. You have to constantly remind yourself that you’re creating a life and your body is meant to change. The hormones + anxiety really make you struggle with your mental health some days.
But you love your belly, from the very beginning. You glow and radiate happiness. You love feeling the baby move & are always holding your bump as you connect with your baby. Ultrasound days bring you tears of joy and relief that everything is okay. Ordering baby stuff and setting up the nursery makes you more and more excited to have a little babe to hold and love.
It’s so hard living in a world where women can’t be human. Where we can’t share the ups & downs of our journey (especially with pregnancy and motherhood) because it’s looked down upon to have bad days. Where women can’t be share their true feelings in fear of judgement.
Well, I’m here to change that because sharing my authentic journey means sharing my daily ups & downs. It means showing parts of me that aren’t perfect, that are just human.
I don’t enjoy being pregnant. That’s a fact.
But that doesn’t mean I don’t cherish all the good moments. It doesn’t mean that I’m not grateful for the beautiful life growing inside me. It doesn’t mean that I’m not excited for motherhood / what the end of the tunnel leads us to. And it sure doesn’t mean that I don’t find joy in the little things (aka being obsessed with my bump).
Pregnancy is the most humbling journey I’ve ever been on. It’s a constant reminder of how amazing women are and how amazing God has created us. Every. Little. Detail. We create humans. In our freaking body. But for me, it hasn’t been quite glamorous, it has been hard. Emotionally and physically hard. And that is okay because we will receive the most beautiful gift after this hard, humbling season.
JOURNEY WITH DRISH 